How did Adam feel about his second deployment

Answer: Not so good

Explanation:

''But halfway through my second deployment, I had my first panic attack. I realized that if I didn't fix this, I wasn't going to be able to do my job anymore. In a way, I was only trying to save my own career. I knew I had to do something or I couldn't continue to do this work.''

He was anxious at first, he had his first panic attack and it got him worried about everything. Then, he realized what is important for him and he knew that he must fix everything in his head in order to start working normally. He wanted to save his career and with anxiety and bad thoughts he could not do these important things as he should.